I have not felt like blogging much lately. I'm still pretty tired and not getting enough sleep. So I pretty much just work and go home, do a couple of chores, go see the baby, and sleep. It is getting a touch better, though.

Hubby is slowly getting better every day. He's on the right track anyway. He still has two doctors appointments next week.

I just wanted to share a couple of pictures with you that were taken last weekend. Son came back into town for a little while to visit with us and go see his son. (I guess it upset him greatly hearing his dad was in the hospital.)

Like I said, these were from last Sunday. Hubby had not even been out of the hospital 24 hours yet. That's why he looks a bit tired... Though he was very happy to see grandson again.

I hope that all of you are well and healthy!

(And, no, this is not my house.)

The little angel is now 4 months old. He's just precious... You can tell he loves his Grandad!

And the fun continues... :P

We finally heard from son, even though it was just a quick sentence or two on a public blog. He said he was okay and that he wanted to "say sorry to dad" for his bad behavior at the courthouse. That's good. He said some pretty bad things that broke everyone's heart, especially his dad's.

She's still in the hospital. Don't know when she's getting out. Her mother is trying to get the doctors to keep her in longer this time since she (as do we all) believes that she was released much too early last time.

Hubby broke a rib. We spent part of yesterday in the emergency room. He had slipped and fallen about a week ago. He thought he broke a rib, but said that they couldn't do much more for him than wrap it and give him pain meds. It started to swell -- badly -- so I finally convinced him to go to the ER. Yes, it was confirmed. The good news is that it was a clean break with no bone fragments floating around, nor were any of his vital organs punctured. His liver and pancreas and lungs were pretty bruised, but no internal bleeding. Thank goodness for that!

I'm still working. No real problems (aside from the obvious, ongoing ones) to report. I'm going to see grandson again tonight. I forgot my camera at home, but maybe I'll post a couple more pics of previous ones that I haven't yet posted a bit later on.

Thanks again for all your support, guys. You have no idea how much you keep me going sometimes...

When grandson would stay with us just a short while ago, he would laugh and smile all the time. I've noticed that it's harder and harder to make him smile. It seems to me that he has 'lost' his personality. He used to be so full of joy with us. Even as young as he is, I'm seeing that part of him as nearly gone. The 'sparkle' seems to be lost as he travels from babysitter to babysitter and house to house. It breaks my heart to see that. I've been told recently that I am "the light" in grandson's eyes. I am here to show him care and true, unconditional, love. He knows I am here.
And no matter what, once he looks into my eyes (and truly, he will look everywhere, but once his eyes light on mine), he sees that in me. He smiles broadly and just clings to me when I am there...

I also have friends who see that light in me. They say that they hate to see me so hurt and darkened by this. ...that if I just show my true personality, the light will show through for all to see, and I may not be so hurt by all that is around me. I didn't think people saw that in ME. All I need is that grandson see that in me. To know that others do, too, is absolutely amazing.

I do what I can. I am here when I am needed. ..even for d-i-l and her mother if they need me.

I have not so positive opinions or thoughts about her or her mother, but they are people, too. We all need help now and again from others -- whether it be emotional or physical or just a helping hand when we need it.

The situation is very sad and maddening and crazy. We just do what we can -- when we can -- and hope that it is enough.

Thank you all for being here for me. I TRULY appreciate it. It makes my days easier. I have to say that I have the most amazing blog friends. I really do. I think I just have the most amazing friends, period! Thank you all for all your support.

Here are a couple of pics of the little angel baby. He was 3 months old. These were professionally done. I still believe that a lot of times I take much better pics... ;D

Just got a call this morning. She's back in the psychiatric hospital again. ...a suicide attempt Sunday night. Still haven't heard from son since he behaved so badly.

The world is crazy.

Going to visit grandson tonight.

**EDIT**
Sorry to be so negative. There's just so much "negativity" going on around us. But I do have some happy moments. I didn't want that forgotten. I have a lot of good people in my life who care about me.

We are still in limbo with grandson. We visit a couple times a week. That's about all we can do for now. We just got his '3 month' pics back. He's about 3 1/2 months now and really big (considering how small he was at birth). He seems to be pretty healthy. After hearing the other grandmother's experiences with her own daughter as a baby, I'm more convinced every day that grandson is very much like son in personality. Son was an amazingly good baby. ...very sweet and very happy.

I'd give almost anything to have grandson back with us again.

Yes, she is still in the hospital. Don't know what's going to happen with that. Son is still living a couple of hours away.